C644 Dielastotic
C644 Dielastotic
"You asked for it yourself. Who asked you to call Second Wife?" Qiu Tong said.
"I —" I stopped, then began to quibble. "What's wrong with calling her Second Wife, I'm putting her in a good position to encourage her."
"Ha, you're talking nonsense again." Qiu Tong smiled with two dimples on her face, which made me want to pour some wine and drink it.
I pretended to be serious. "I am definitely not spouting nonsense. What I said was the truth. Look, didn't the great women of modern history all change to Second Wife?"
Qiu Tong was amused, "You're the one who said that when you're a great woman, you want to be a mistress and then a Second Wife? Sly! "
I said, "Being a great woman is not about not being a mistress, but choosing who to be a mistress with! It's like doing things. Many things are not about doing things or not doing them, but about who to do them with. "
"You sound very reasonable."
"That makes a lot of sense."
"Haha, according to what you said, Xia Yu is right to follow you as Second Wife, right?"
I smiled and started talking without restraint. I blurted out, "I don't want her to be Second Wife with me. It's not that bad for you."
As soon as the words left his mouth, he suddenly felt that something was wrong, but he couldn't take it back.
Qiu Tong's face immediately turned red as she glared at me. "You — you Second Master, you —"
"I... I was kidding. " I panicked a little and hurriedly said, "Actually, you're not suitable to be Second Wife. You're suitable to be First Wife."
When I heard this, I felt even more confused. What kind of bullsh * t is this?
"You …" Qiu Tong's face turned even redder. "What nonsense are you spouting?" You... How can you talk like that? "
I could tell that Qiu Tong's expression was a little panicked, but my heart was also a little panicked. Even though it was a joke, but between Qiu Tong and I, it didn't sound like that.
Qiu Tong's face was red and downcast, her fingers drumming restlessly on the table.
For a moment, we were both silent. The air in the room was awkward and ambiguous, but of course, this ambiguous feeling was mine. I didn't know what Qiu Tong felt.
After a long silence, I stood up and whispered, "Qiu Tong."
"Yes." Qiu Tong lowered her head and agreed.
"I'm leaving."
"Yes." Qiu Tong still didn't look up.
I went out, and when I reached the door, I looked back as I closed it behind me.
He saw Qiu Tong raise her head and look at me, her eyes were a little confused and panicked.
My heart skipped a beat and I closed the door behind me.
When I got back to the office, Cao Teng wasn't there. I sat at my desk, my heart still pounding wildly.
After a long time, I finally calmed down a little. I looked at the computer screen in a daze, then hesitated. I logged in my QQ and saw that my Floating Dream was online.
"He's coming." I hit the keyboard.
"Yes." I just came up, and you are here as well. "
"I just arrived too. How have you been? "
"Mm, okay. You too. "
"I'm fine. The weather had turned cold. He went out and put on more clothes. "Don't freeze."
"En, I will. You have to pay more attention to yourself."
"Yes."
Then we fell silent, as if there were so many things we wanted to say that we didn't know what to say.
After a long time, Floating Dream began to speak: "Keke."
"I'm …"
"Me."
"What do you want to say? Tell me."
"Recently, I've been feeling very conflicted."
"What's wrong?"
"I don't know if I should tell you."
"If you think it's necessary for you to tell me, then say it. If you think it's not appropriate for you to tell me, then don't say it!" My heart was pounding again.
"Hai." She sighed. "I know I shouldn't tell you, but. But I can't help but want to talk to you. I can't say that to anyone around me, except you. "
"Then tell me." "No," I said.
She was silent.
I stared at the chat window on the computer screen.
"I've let you down, I've let us down …" she said after a moment.
My heart jolted, and an indescribable feeling filled my entire body.
"Why do you say that?" The fingers on my keyboard were trembling, and I knew what she was going to say.
"Because... I... I betrayed my feelings for you. I... I don't know what's wrong with me. I feel so vile and guilty. "
"What's going on?" "No," I said.
"I... I don't know what's going on. "
"Why do you say that again?"
"I... I don't know when, but I unknowingly thought of a person in reality as you. I knew that he wasn't you, that you were just a shadow in the air, but I didn't know why, but to him … To him... There's that feeling. "
"Oh." I don't know whether it was ecstasy or panic, whether it was pain or contradiction.
"This must be Yi Ke, right?" "No," I said.
"You … How do you know? "
"I guessed it. I guessed it right. Of all the people in your world, this is the one you mention the most in front of me. " I said, "You mean you're in love with him, don't you?"
"I... I don't know. Perhaps … Yes... I'm sorry, Keke, I was wrong, I know I was wrong, I shouldn't have felt this way for him, I should have only felt this way for you, I shouldn't have felt this way for anyone else.
She said, "But... I also know that he has a girlfriend. His girlfriend is like a sister to me, and I have such feelings for him. I know that I am despicable, shameless, and guilty. I... I'm in so much pain, I'm so tangled. "
"What happened between you and him?" "No," I said.
"Nope."
"He knows you feel that way about him?"
"I don't know. He probably doesn't know, but maybe he feels it too. "
"Does he mean that to you?"
"He … I don't know. I don't think so. He has a girlfriend. He has a very good relationship with his girlfriend, he shouldn't have treated me like this. "
"How do you know?"
"I... I guess, I guess. "
"You believe your guess?"
"I... I don't know. I only know how conflicted I am. I actually betrayed my feelings for you. I actually fell in love with my sister's boyfriend. I actually fell to such a state. "I'm in so much pain, I've been hesitating about whether I should tell you or not. After thinking about it for a long time, I finally decided to tell you."
"What do you mean? You don't feel that way about me anymore. You want to tell me that, don't you? "
"No, no. My feelings for you are still the same, only thicker, not the least bit weaker, but somehow, I would unconsciously think of him as you. In him, I would often think of you, I know that I was dreaming, I was just fantasizing, but I couldn't control myself, I couldn't control the thoughts and feelings inside me.
This is precisely the reason why I feel deeply guilty and fall into pain so often. I can't believe that I would become such a wicked person. I didn't dare to think that I would become such a woman. "Keke, I'm in so much pain. I'm so sad."
"What's so good about that guy that you actually think of him as me? You actually see my shadow on him and it actually makes you feel that way."
"Although he has many shortcomings, he is disrespectful, sloppy, yin and yang. However, he has more advantages, he is more like you, he and you have the same advantages, even. He even gave me a more genuine feeling in reality than you. Every time I see him, I can't help but think of you.
I know he's not you, I know I shouldn't feel this way, but I really can't control my brain, can't control the connection deep inside me. Although no one knew what I was thinking, I couldn't deceive myself. Every time I thought of you, every time I saw his girlfriend, I would always blame myself. Keke, tell me, am I very shameless, very vulgar, very ugly. "
Looking at Floating Dream's words of self-blame, my heart hurt so much that I couldn't control myself.
"Ruo Meng, don't blame yourself, don't suffer anymore. I understand your feelings and your thoughts, I won't blame you. You are the best woman in the world, don't belittle yourself so much.
"Do you really think so? "You still think so?"
"Yes, what I said was the truth. You are the most beautiful, purest, and most flawless woman in my heart."
"Thank you. In my heart, you are also the best and most perfect man in the world. "Maybe it's because of the virtual reality that you are so perfect, your perfection even surpasses Yi Ke. Although I know that you are not that perfect in reality, I am still willing to deceive myself." She said, "Keke. "Tell me, how far is virtual reality from reality?"
I said, "What do you think?"
She said, "I really don't know how far the virtual network is from reality, nor do I know why I would fall for someone I've never seen before. If I could, I wish I had never met you, and if I didn't know you, I wouldn't fall for you, and I wouldn't fall for this Yi Ke in reality, so I wouldn't be in such pain."
"The virtual world and the real world are very far away, very close to each other. In fact, they might even be right by your side."
She said, "I don't know what you mean."
"If you don't understand, then so be it. If you do, you will be in even more pain."
"I don't understand any more."
I said, "If you don't understand, then don't think about it."
She was silent for a while: "Actually, I have thought countless times that one day you would walk into my reality, how I wish that you could really walk into mine, how I wish that you were Yi Ke in reality, however, I do not dare to think about it, I am very afraid of my thoughts.
The Yi Ke in reality has a girlfriend, the me in reality is helpless. In reality, my fate has already been decided for a long time, and if you really step into reality and join me in reality, Yi Ke in reality, then, I will suffer even more, and we will both suffer even more. I'm a tragic person. I don't even dare to daydream. I'm not even qualified to daydream. "
My heart continued to ache and I was speechless for a moment.
After a moment of silence, she said, "Keke —"
"I'm …"
"You are my air."
"Yes."
"I'm not even your air."
"Wrong —"
"Hai." She sighed deeply.
"Don't blame yourself. Don't let yourself live in contradiction and pain."
"Don't blame yourself, don't suffer, don't argue. Tell me, what should I do?"
"I don't know."
"Sigh. Actually, I don't know. However, I understand that I cannot hurt others, and cannot do things that let others down. I would rather suffer myself than to harm innocent people. " "No," she said.
"You're talking about Yi Ke's girlfriend?"
"Yes, I consider her to be my sister. She is a very good girl. The key is, she loves Yi Ke very much."
"Then does Yi Ke love her?"